The Occult Experience
Recently I challenged myself to a question that seemed really easy to answer until I went searching for a more truthful answer. That question was this, “Why do you study the Occult?” Seems easy enough right? After the first responses of, “Because I do” and “It’s who I am”, I began going deeper to get to the real truth. When I posed the hypothetical question to myself of, “What if science proved that the Occult doesn’t exist and is nothing more than a psychosis expressed through ritual, would you still follow it?” I had to answer honestly, YES! At the end of the experience, I’m not as concerned with if the supernatural really exists or if it’s all in my head as much as having an Occult Experience. I recently posted a couple of documentaries on The Occult Experience that was done like a propaganda film meets soft porn that shows the ridiculous and bizarre nature of different belief systems. But it did get me to ask, what was my Occult experience.
I was able to narrow it down to this: My Occult experience is to find my Social and Sexual Identity and ways to navigate my thoughts of Power, War, and Seduction with spiritual and meaningful significance. In short, the occult is a way for me to navigate my social and sexual self in the world to help strengthen relationships and healthy boundaries with society. My first experiences in the occult was sexual, I wanted to find a deeper level of relationships and the ability to have the flare and excitement that witchcraft could offer me. Lets face it, dancing naked with a bunch of strangers can be mystical and sexually exciting. The goals was to find true love and an experience that would last a lifetime. During my twenties, I began to feel un-noticed and taken advantage of which launched me to using the occult as a way of gaining personal power and self defense. At the heart of it, I wanted to learn the a way of gaining personal power and the strategies of war. My goals wasn’t to cause pain and suffering, but to be able to protect myself and gain the self confidence to know when to turn the other cheek and when to strike back. Needless to say, my twenties was filled with stomping and dominance until I found a healthy balance of using the occult for this purpose.
Now that I’m older, I find myself using three modes of ritual and three different belief systems all tied to the occult. When I want to use the occult rituals for sex, seduction, healing and love, I turn to witchcraft. My main influence is The Witch’s Bible by Janet Farrar. This was the book I found in my youth and still is the most powerful book to inspire those traits in myself. The next on the list is occult rituals for power, for this I turn to satanism. Anton Laveys Satanic Bible is a great place to turn for personal power and a bump in narcissistic behavior. These books, as most of you know, turns you towards worshipping yourself and giving a boost of personal power when you need to face the world with a strong belief in yourself. For the aspects of war, destruction, and self defense, I turn to Simon’s Necronomicon. Although this book is seen as a joke by some and just plain fantasy, I find the imagery and the world of Giger’s Necronomicon to inspire the strength and will power to defend and stand up for myself.
The three modes of ritual and the belief systems to match has been the foundation of my Occult Experience for decades now. I always find myself reaching to these books whenever I need to get the motivation, inspiration, and willpower to move ahead. Even though some witches would look down at combining witchcraft, satanism, and the necronomicon, I feel these three work beautifully together and create an entire system that is flexible and adaptable to any and all situations for my purposes. I would love to hear what books you guys reach for and an overall system of magick you like to use.
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